The life full of despair and no hope

I remember, it was sad dark and brutal

Everyday crying, fighting and trying to survive

As if someone had locked me up in a box.

A box, filled with their laughter, judgement and evilness

I knew my life was unbearably a mess

I pushed all my limits, pushed myself as hard as I can

Just to reach the standards and gain expectations that they had made for me.

But was it worth it? I question myself again and again

Who was I really trying to impress?

I almost lost me, myself and my voice

But then I realized that I must live for me and it’s my choice.

The unfamiliar heartbeat now somewhat feels familiar.

All the vivid imaginations of mine get more and more clear

The realization of self-love, especially after knowing it’s meaning

I get this euphoric feeling!

Seven legends say,

“It’s harder loving yourself than loving someone else.”

And yes, they’re right 

This realization makes me feel free and alive. 

     

By: Miliska Tuladhar (Management, A2)